and so thee shall.

I have a new pet! Its a llama and I just had to get it. (go scroll near the tag board, of course it not real! My parents think that two animals in the house is enough. You see why sometimes me and my bro find it rather hard to appreciate their wit?)
Why I just HAD to get it? Well, remember Tintin comics, in particular "Titin in Tibet" and Captain Haddock's great friendship with a particular llama?
hahahahha.. get it? in the face? ;)

Hmmm, generally getting used to the life of the idle. Sitting and lazing around does have it merits, especially since I have got a sound scolding from all the NS boys about "how the grass is greener and it is completely brown here, where we work" and from all the people going through exams whether it be in JC , Sec School( I really wanted to spell it as skool but it reminded me of Avril Lavirgne's "sk8ter boi" which I loathe to a degree unimaginable and perhaps only equal to "Accidentally in love" by The Counting Crows ..sorry kat.) or Uni. Such reprimands ranged from the crude " You are fucking ungrateful" to the eleqouent " You are completely addled and shouldn't be complaing and by the way, you are fucking ungrateful" and to the bizzare "hey, now you can look at the clouds. Don't be such a fucking whiner"

And by the way, after this, I can swear no longer. This habit has manifested in front of my parents , with rather dire consequences. Though, I have attempted to tamp down on this habit, I now embark upon this with newfound determination which hopefully would last beyond a week.

Listening to Vertical Horizon's - Everything you want and its such a pleasure to let the mellow guitar sounds combined with the crashing drums blend and flow. By the way, my music as hence been classified as Adult Alternative. Things like Creed, Oasis, Lifehouse and the Foo Fighters is now Adult. And we used to think that it was a product of teenage angst. Go Figure. Perhaps, now we are adults with angst (heheh,that sounds like some crap action group. Adults with Angst - Go show your teenage kid what angst really is!) As my friends moaned , the kids in the school they taught phrased it as a mix of such "wah, cher u really not hip ready la! so old skool. Now we listen to Good Charlotte and Busted. Lifehouse was like so last century la cher! And Nirvana what? Isn't there some Cobain guy there?"

I mean, they're nice to listen like a few times or a once in a while indulgence (sort of like you know BSB) but then they grate on your nerves after a while. I don't say I don't listen to them, I do, but after a while you kinda think "1985" (Bowling for Soup) isn't so funny anymore because how many times can you listen "cuz she's still preoccupiedwith 19, 19, 1985" , also because I was born in 1986 and one day my kids are going to sing that. Maybe they'll revolutionise and listen to New Age as the next big thing.The Pan flute will be the new guitar. I'd stick around to see that :) Oh hell ya ,yes, I would :)

unidentifiable words with little meaning

thpthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
flubble

so there!

Things never come out the way you want them to be said. You never meet the people you want to. Stuff never seems to work out the way you want them to and seem to fall apart. You feel like you could never be truly happy because you are stuck in a place you don't feel like being in, stifled and restircted. And yet, you find it is hard to throw everything away and say "foo! I'm taking a hike". Because, it is hard to ignore that silver lining peeping out. Because, it is hard to admit that you care about everything and that you love more than anything but you know its true. That no matter, what anyone says, you try to defend it because you know its not so bad and that you should count your blessings. One by one, slowly with a lot of thought.

Though, you wonder why it has to be so hard?

But you know, it is worth it.

I got new curtains!

Support the thing! It completely unequivocably rocks.

*oooo* To say stupid things and wish you could take them back.
I'm gonna sleep.
Oh the photos, are in colour, yup you guessed it, to "liven" things up. Maybe when I'm back in civilisation, I'd feel compelled to be avant grande and revert to black and white. Until then , Pollyanna it is.

Urgh

Jet - Are you gon' be my girl

I think 'foo' is that noise people make when they try to blow their hair out of their face without using their hands. You know, where the hair flops back on to the face and you scrunch up your face in the same effort and 'foo' once again to unsuccessfully watch your hair flop back agin on your face. And then you use your hands to shove it off your face because it is so irritating to keep 'foo' ing

You can guess what I was doing for the better part of the evening.

P/s: Such moments look wonderful in the Lizzie Mcguire show. How come no one films me?
Pp/s: The coloured words don't mean anything except to liven up the entry.

I keep taking Nutella by the table spoon and keep eating it

I eat as a broken and highly bored Girl. I capitalised it due to my obsession of staying young.
(Lady! I am freaking not a lady)

I shall make a list of things, well of, hmm, my favourite colours in order

1. Black
2.Silver
3.Royal Purple
4. Sky Blue
5. Citrus Orange ( I blame this on Shaan)

Perhaps I should just add pink to balance out the colours. Actually I kinda like this colour too.

Hey, this is kinda colourful and funky.

B O r e d

You know, I always think Pink and Purple look wonderful together.
I should probably say someting rather insightful and deep at this juncture.

Nahhhhhhhh.
foo.

Vertical Horizon - You're a God

I"M GOING NUTS
I CANNOT SIT AROUND AND DO NOTHING.

I never thought it possible but I'm amazed that the endless amount of watching the tube, surfing the net, talking on the phone,eating and sleeping have taken their toll.
1 more week of sitting around is going to turn me into this lump of mush, assuming I am not one already.

I CANNOT WAIT TO GO UNIVERSITY.

My illusions are shattered. Who ever said retirement was gonna be fun was LYING. WAS TELLING A HUGE PORKY. A BIG FAT JUICY ONE.

I lie as a broken lady. (DO YOU KNOW IN THE HOSPITAL RECORDS, I was classified as a 18 year old LADY. I'm not a LADY! I'm a a girl ! GURL! CHICA! YOUNG ADULT! TEENAGER! NOT A LADY)

of course, i'm bordering on hysteria. You sit at home and not do anything at all.

Well, I came online to say great things but I had a brain freeze.

Met her online today. I like what I see. I think she'll make him happy. Drive him a bit nuts but make him happy.But I'll hold on till December to reserve judgement but so far so good. Happy for him.

Oh wait, I forgot to do something. Ok back. Well technically, you wouldn't know if I went away unless I told you, like I did just now. Which was redundant. I didn't have to tell you that I was going away because you wouldn't have known unless I told you.

I talk when I'm nervous and/or have nothing to do

I did something today I felt I shouldn't have done but it was fun.
Rather fun.
I'm a dunce.
A huge dunce.

Well, sitting around doing nothing at home sounds heavenly and most people work so that they can do that when they are old but currently it sucks.

yes that is my status quo. A bit dunce-y and incoherent, while I'm singing nice lil' love songs like Collide by Howie Day wondering where my life is.

Please give it back if you find it. I'm lost without it.
hahahahhaha. Sorry, *snort*, it is kinda funny. Should take a classified out for it. hahahah

action gaction

Yes, of course I want to watch this.
Its mindless, has a 99% probability of having a crap plot and would be a complete waste of time and money

But its got 4 good reasons to why I will watch it

1) I watched The Fast and The Furious
2) I watched 2Fast2Furious
3) I completely wanted to watch Torque
4) I love Paul Walker

Don't credit me for my intelligence.

and then..Gavin Degraw

http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505

http://www.economist.com/printedition/displayStory.cfm?Story_ID=4054912


As I was reading, I suddenly felt that I was doing something wrong. I wasn't reading for insight or knowledge about another person's life. I was reading vindictively and viciously, I was reading to gossip and bitch. And it made me feel deflated. Because the writing was so poignant about her life, it was just an ordinary girl's misgivings about life. She was no longer ____, she was just a girl. So she's not exactly the stellar example of a "friend" but she didn't do anything to me. You can't sue people for trying to live, whether she lives like me or not. Whether she is a poseur or not. Whether her problems are real or not, she didn't do anything to ME so how can I be such an awful person about it. She had a bad patch, she screamed abit and now I'm being awful. WE don't even talk. I'm such a bitch, that I cannot even let go after so long.
And what do I have to gain? To know about her life, what the fuck is wrong with me?
She's moved on.. Why are we such bitches?

Why?

The worst part is I know I fucking won't stop reading.

What the hell is wrong with me?

sweet home jalan tamban

Ok, for everybody er, itching, to know what happened, here's it in one sentence

The floozy got a bit woozy after getting into a tizzy.

haha..*giggle* it rhymes eh? hahahha

Well, ok, I was in the hospital but I'm back on. Just had a spot of trouble with dengue and my blood count dropped but I'm back in action, well I will be in about erm, 2 weeks. Well, I told
only some people, it was all hush hush cuz I didn't want visitors and all that jazz. I hate getting sick so er, people don't need to come and fuss as well. Erm, this is a sort of apology to some people who I should have told but didn't because, well because, I didn't want to worry you guys. and yes, I may er, have forgot to message *sheepish look*

It was quite an entertaining stay. I had a regular fiesty old grandmother opposite me and she was so cute. She was there because she had erm, constipation and well, other bowel-y problems. She suffers from slight senility but she's rather just a old sweet grandmama and you can't really tell. I really didn't watch t.v the whole time cuz watching her interact with the nurses is fantastic. Like, they'll put her in a chair so her legs will touch the floor and get some blood circulation because she can't walk but she hates sitting down. So the minute the nurse goes away, she'll start pleading with me and this other lady next to her (There are 4 beds in the ward - me, this other auntie, fiesty grandma 1 and cute grandma 2) to help her up.

She'll plead in a blend of hindi and english and tell us things like" If you only had one grandmother and she was suffering this way, would you just sit there child?" (smart eh? go straight to the sentiments! hahaha) Then I told her "Grandma, if you only had one grandaughter and she asked you to sit, would you?" Then she pursued her mouth mulishly and said " I don't like you. You talk smart" hahahahahha

Then she'll ask the nurse who'll feed her things like " If I eat this porridge, will I get old?" hahaha.. so cute! Other gems include :
" I don't why I'm here. I'm okay right? ok maybe not, that's why I'm here"
"I don't want to sleep alone, will you sleep with me in my bed? There's space and I will share my pillow"
"I can walk, ok I lied, I can't"
"Ok, once the nurse leaves, then we'll leave okay? Must run fast or they'll find us!"

hahahahha

I want to go law camp. I want, I want, I want, I want, I want, I want! *sighs*

I wish I wish I wish

I feel like a foreigner in Singapore. Blame it on India.

tag, you're it!

Got this from Nabilla!

Total volume of music files on my computer:
Well, I'm using a makeshift hardisk so I keep burning my Music as Mp3 cds. Currently my music is 1.38 G - 100 songs

The last CD I bought was:
Train - My Private Nation

Song playing right now:
Third Eye blind - Palm Reader/ Ocean's 11 OST - A la Menthe

Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
Matchbox 20 - Bright Lights
Taxiride - Creeping up slowly
Fiona Apple - Paperbag
Third Eye Blind - Crystal Baller
Rob Thomas - Problem Girl

Five people to whom I'm passing the baton:
Diane
Kat
Shaan
Libby
Haniza

get your freak on

yes, tis the era of quizzes again

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What

Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Hmm, interesting.. thought it would be the bad boy that I would fall for. The one I would hate to love but can't help myself. The one who would keep me on my twinkle toes..waxing lyrical eh?

Your Birthdate: September 14

With a birthday on the 14th of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas, and you are also very good at organization and systematizing. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it. You have a tendency to shirk responsibility.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Rather true. Especially shirking responsibility part. hahaha.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.

You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society.

You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

Who's" the True You?

So this makes me easy? Ask me !!


GREEN

??Which colour of Death is yours??
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Woah intense. Don't you love the picture? The rawness is so well delivered.

Damn, something was irking me and I forgot what it was. Well, it will come to me. This is why we should not SMS. It really encourages a short attention span.
I promised I would be off the net and not be waiting. crap


Well, its nice to be back home and nope, no floppy haired guy but I did get to do something so bloody exciting I will never forget it.
I sat in the pilot's cockpit while the plane was landing.

And what did I learn?
when you are suspended in air, the landmasses are at their most beautiful
your stomach drops more, all the way to your feet
you forget to breathe
you can see rivulets of water move upward
the stars are really close by
planes are little dots in the sky
you see power at the hands of people
and you see that power not being abused
That electricity is not about effciency but about beauty
That lights are not just lights but an intricately pieced artwork which no one really realises.
That pilots really are hot when in command.

:)

Things never change across space.

AAARGH!

I have been compared to Janice from F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Yes! Janice as in Janice who was Chandler's EXTREMELY IRRITATING NASAL VOICED EX GIRLFRIEND who goes "Chandy Baby!" THAT JANICE! The Same character, who, Chandler (MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER) used to jump away from , after a few episodes!

I quote " Hey, no offence but you remind me of Janice from FRIENDS. You look like the Indian version of her, expecially when you smile"

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHGHHHHHHHH!

The Virgo in me is itching to do a list so I shall do so.

1. MY SMILE! MY SMILE! The asset that I am most proud of (Now I know, most of my friends think I should be prouder of other assets but anyway..) MY SMILE! I LOOK LIKE JANICE WHEN I SMILE! I'll never recover from this

2. Of course, I'm overreacting.duh.haha. Its disgusting but I'm mildly flattered. Its not everyone who looks like an actress (albeit ugly or not. hahaha)

3. What is it about weddings that make you want to get married too? Every wedding I go to, I feel like getting married too. Its so romantic to see the secret smiles and the little whispers they exchange as they sit through the ceromany. Its the intimacy, the newness of seeing love blossming, in fact the whole process of getting married and please, the great sex too ;) hahahhaha. Yes, of course my brain's in the gutter. It always has been. :)

4. God. Sometimes, I hate coming to India because everybody my age is in 2nd year of "whatever". I feel like a dunce in comparision when I say "oh er, yes I'll be 19 this year and am just going to first year of college, no I didn't fail anything, not even 2nd grade, no really, NO REALLY. Oh, well I have been doing nothing, having 6 mths of holiday to bum around because my country sends every bloody paper we to Cambridge and they have this insane anal need to moderate it but I'm not complaining because I like my grades, but you get my drift. No, I'm going to do Law actually, no not engineering, not even general engineering. Oh I haven't done Science since I was in 10th grade so I don't actually qualify but its ok I never really like science. I did history Lit and Econs. Why I didn't do econs (maybe because I didn't get a fantastic grade for it ever!?!) isn't it more practical?" And I go on to explain my love for debate and then they turn away half way in mild disgust. ahahah. Actually, its just the really traditional people who sort of turn away as though I have herpes. hahahha. Most people say " Oh, yes you look like the sort" then they hem and haw. hahahah. Things never change across space. Einstein is talking rubbish.

5.I need to tackle this dual personality in me before I turn schizo. The extreme duality will drive me nuts. It already is.

6. Cute guys quota : hmmm, not bad. hahaha. I was instructed to give my opinion !! ( If floppy hair turns up tomorrow, it iswould be mildy serendipity-ish. But it would mean, I should travel more as the only connection we have is the airport ;] hahahah. God I talk rubbish )

7. I confess I never thought I 'd meet great people in the wedding but guess what I was wrong! :)

8. I'm coming home!