i have ONE nerve and you are getting on it

do NOT for fucking god's sakes, tell me I can't do whatever cuz I'm a fucking girl.

we're only just waiting to make our get away

sooo its finally over but the funny thing is, that there's no sudden sense of euphoria or overwhelming relief. Perhaps, because the end of A's, for me, herald not the end of a organised student life but rather the beginning of a new world, where I am an adult, preparing to take responsibility. 21 is now not that far away.

crap. talk about jumping from the frying pan into the fire. well, i didn't jump but got thrown.
but still.

Also because we've done everything that used to signify freedom, good food and movies, a tad too many times. Boredom and routine has taken over.

Kinda scared. I'm not ready to be responsible. The 6 mths that is looming ahead is begging to be filled with so many things but I'm just too lazy to start. Starting means, acceptance and I don't think I want to accept reality for a bit yet. I think , much of this idea comes from being the youngest in teh family so everything happens to me later than all my cousins and I've seen it happen and maybe the inevitability that is ineveitable, I want to postpone just a bit longer. wow talk about complex sentence which I'm sure is wrong.

push back reality a bit.

ok lazy to type now. heh
latest news
1. bro's back in town. promise of more fun
2. grandma too. don't think that much fun
3. officially prediction for my A grades is BBC. don't want it but I don't think I'll get a AAB (which is my minimum)
4. NEED to go prom shopping and girly shopping
5. NEED to make a list
6. NEED to create schedule beyond the next 3 weeks which is like slack, party, laze, exist
7. All my close frens think that I will have pre marital sex. wtf?!?!
8. urk. i need new frens. haha.
9. School of Seduction is not what you think it is, like the many single old men who peppered the cinema who assumed so, it does not have sex scenes neither does it reek of B-grade porn movies.
10. Don't think I'll get the sph scholarship.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and remember bryan adam - we're only waiting to make out waiting to make
and remember grass is greener on the either side because it has more manure.
like when ur 13 and thought being 18 rocked and when ur here,its kind alike when ur 13 but with less giggling and more seriousness. blah

freaky

i was reading through my old posts when I realised that my age referrals do not go

when I was 14,
when I was 16,
when I was a zillion negative
(hey that would be probably be a previous of a previous of a previous birth)

but rather

when I was in pri6
when I was in sec2
when I was in sec4

*~x~x~x*

this country has sucked my soul.
:(

*sing to the tune of a circus show tune*

and they said : -

Slam a thunka bunka munka shoo bee dee whop dee do
don't forget to slam the door when u step ur toe
swish oo roo to squishuititu sapdee dum dee da
don't forget to break the damn window of ur car

because :-

the world's a stinker and you're a kinker
dum dee dum dee da
just to let you know that ur a minker fa dee da
so don't let the world know ur just a heavy drinker

The housefly which has no one to advise it follows the corpse (Ghana Proverb)

wonder who says these things anyway? Yeah, I mean its supposed to be an old proverb and the fact that I'm reading it means that the cultural divide is becoming smaller and I should appreciate the fact that I know an old proverb from a culture I probably would not have the fortune of imeersing myself in

but anyway.

Imagine its from a one of those communal dinners they have where they sit around the fire and partake of their fare. And then they will be cleaning their teeth, when an old wrinkled women with a toothless smile (as you can see, much of my extensive knowledge comes from NG channel) spots a fly buzzing around the carcass of a wildebeest they had just stripped when she bares her toothless gums and spouts this adage. Upon hearing this, the others marvel at her wisdom and soon it becomes famous. Mothers tell their daughters ; Fathers tell their sons; chiefs tell their people and soon it proliferated.

God, what a romantic world we live in :)
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In other words, I just realised that somewhere along the line, I'm no longer blogging for me but for YOU (partly because of my nature) but I ws bathing and came to this conclusion. Started blogging when I was in sec2. and it started out as way to express my feelings and my thoughts because some were too quirky be told and those who read my blog were aware of my quirkiness. Moreover, it mostly consisted of my massive bimboness and immaturity that I still haven't lost but have better learnt to express.haha

but then. Blogspot happened.

and suddenly everyone had a blog ( and its not a crticism. merely a statement) and I realised the more I added people and vice versa, I couldn't very well tell what happened to me and who was a bitch because someone always knew of the someone I was talking about
(Once, I even made up a random name to facilitate the feelings but it got into huge mess and I was attacked with major hate mails. Do not try. there will always be someone called ZwQhjug. It will be a bot and will wipe out your hard drive and your memory card) And also, though I talk, I never do. SO i don't want to offend anyone and die in the process because I just had to type it
Plus, I can't very well type who I like other than generic examples like Brad Pitt, Jay Sean, Aragorn, Johnny Depp ( also probably I haven't liked anyone.that could perhaps be the source) or what are my deepest darkest sexual fantasies are (which you will never now know) or whether I razed the PE department.(I would if I could but I can't so I shan't) because it no longer is private.

I now have an audience.

So my content is customised to your preferences
(read: to save my ass)

cherish this gift.



holy crap, I'm a writer!

staccato

I will be speaking in short sentences. cuz there's too much to say in 2 min when I will switch on the TV for the second time in god knows how long to see the cocky bastard get kicked out of SI.
and see taufik who has a meltilicious, velvety and whiskey smooth voice, become the SI

I have changed to haloscan because tag-board is so ineffecient and unreliable (two things you should make sure that your life partner isn't)

I really should.

say.

bye.


bye!

beam me up scotty!

ok. lotta things to say. will do in the most haphazard manner possibe. will probbaly be very looooooong.hmm

another day. just too much today.haha

happy a-levelling

*urk* ("o)