Things I have learnt in the past four hours of online persual of nothingness

I love these vastly complicated titles which sound as though they have a wealth of meaning hiiden in their depths but in reality, have nothing to do with the remotest possibilty of intelligence(kinda like this sentence).

I jut realised that my tolerence is greater and my paranoia slightly lesser when I'm online than face to face. Does this mean we are losing patience with the human race?

I think stinkiness enhances the level of brain cell activity and I've come to thsi conclusion after much experimentation of not bathing till now since I woke up at 8 a.m.. It feels quite liberating for a person who bathes as soon as she gets up.

went out with shaan and Asha yesterday.Had fun though stoopid shaan kept putting me on the spot witha asha. Asha is such a nut..haha. sadly not permitted to disclose details. but yea, you should have been there to experience the nutiness.

I realised that I don't have to feel weirded out anymore, as I realised when talkin to Jo, becuase the expectation has to be both ways and what you think that person would assign to you as a friend may not be as great as you think it would be and that it is merely your ego that prompts such an assumption.

hmm.. deep thoughts of stinkiness on an empty stomach..potent combination

ugh. I look like a female version of the "boil guy" in Harold and Kumar go to white castle
(which by the way is fantastic. Really, you have to watch it. It's crass humour at the highest order)

I hate break outs. My skin feels like leather, I feel like crap and school hasn't even started.

I hate days like these. they always preclude mass murders and doomsday prophecies.

*OOOOOHHH*
It just gets me!!!

I think this is how Qi ying feels about main stream music
[Ok, I can feel 'the look' being flashed in my way]

It shouldn't get me, I know!! But I've heard of Three Days Grace (and they are really very good) waaaaaaaaay before you have , even before it came on the radio or MTV and now, it just GETS me when everyone is spouting it like its the best band ever and they've always heard of it. *OOOOO* Same goes with Maroon 5's "She will be loved".. I had all their songs even beofre you could finish saying "harder to breathe" and I loved it!! Suddenly its on radio everywhere and previously, some people who were like "Gawd! That song is so gross" are now mouthing the damn lyrics like Adam Levine wrote it for them. Damn you wannabes! You are pissing the hell outta me. Its not so much that I heard it first but its like you just dissed it earlier becuase it wasn't something that sounds like Justin Timberlake singing and now you embrace it like your second soul. You guys are tainting the meaning of anything rock. *OOOOOOOOOOOOOO* you just get me. I'm not being puritanical.

*OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO*
It just gets me

Random thoughts swirling kinda like the icky unidentifiable bits that are in vomit

actually had a lot more poignant things to say but Urgh, when you don't blog consistently, everything you want to say just builds up and then you get all slobby and inconsistent. urgh. Its sad, that everything is "rule"d even in the place of no rules. Hmm, so does that mean there are the ten commandments in the digital realm ordained by the digital god?

Oh yeah, this is late but thank you all for your birthday wishes.This year was different because some unexpected people went so far that I was flabbergasted but all your birthday wishes were welcomed so much. It really was nice :) SorryI'm not mentioning names becuase I'm lazy and slothful. I'll pay for it negative karma points.

I have realised that most of my favourite worda have the sh sound in them...like squash..squash..skwasshhh.....its so threaupatic.. hey! maybe when retail therapy and kabalala (spelling?!?!) is passe, phonotherapy might make a breakthrough..Like

"Okay repeat after me -"squash the flat bug!!",
"squash the flat bug!!",
"Don't squash it!!!",
"Don't squash it!!!",
"Squash it!"
"Squash it! "
"SQUASH it !!!!"
"SQUASH IT!!"
"Skwassssh it!"

ok that sounds more like a bloodthirsty massacre war cry, ("the squashers and the squashies" haha) but you get my drift

Literary I am obviously not

eh liz, you ain't seen nuthin yet*

Lynn.. I dreamt I was married and my brother was the emcee at my wedding.
I'd rather marry a gnome.really.



*Please intonate with alot of rapper dude attitude

On the other planes of Vasudha-land,

1) Official War has been declared with the leader of the brat posse,LIZ (short for Zen-Initaited Loser reversed) though diplomatic relations still remain, albeit precarious. Latest meeting enused in chaos and vulagarities being exchanged.

2) A traitor has been found within our aliies. AHEM. We know who you are. And, you are either with us or with them (statement issued to add pizzaz to otherwise mundane news flash)

3) Crisis may enuse due the inherent lack of ability of the premier to reconcile with second central authority. For the first time in Vasudha Land history, ground command has been moved to FLUNKCON 1. The next level would be disastrous to contemplate. Citizens are warned to remain on guard for volatile mood swings of the Premier.

Ok, this is getting tiring, shall attempt to study for his S despite severe underqualification.

Well, its been 6 days since i turned 18 and I'm still waiting for some epiphany to strike. So far, it seems to be MIA . 18 when you're 18 and 18 when you're 13 is two different things indeed. I'm still missing the great things that I would have done and all the partying. The only thing that seems consistent is the workload. As Di and I were discussing, there's this increased sense of dissatisfaction that's plauging us. The constant feeling of not not maximising full potenitial where there's a huge deflationary gap present. Operation at the frontier of my production possibilty curve is absent. I know this feeling has been niggling on at the back of my mind since the start of the year and I know I'm not doing anything to change it but whining. It irritates me when I see people achieving when we are at the same standing but yet, I consciously do not fault them for their successes. I just can't face up to my inadequacy of not performing to the best of my abilities. And that irks me. Because, I'm drifting and cramming BUT at the same time, I don't know what I'm good at. There is no tangible proof of my ability other than being a motor mouth. I'm scared because I have so many ideas but not enough guts to follow through with them because sadly tempered with my impulsiveness. paradoxically, is a worrisome temperment.

I hate introspection.

Worse still, I hate it when it comes attached with the birthday blues. foo

I think to be a Hindu, one has to possess a certain degree of paranoia and speculative abilities

i.e becuase...

Ok, the Hindus believe in karma so what ever you do WILL come back and bite you in the ass so the safest course is to do good all the time.
Which is of course, nice and peachy if you could.
I can't
Not that I don't have the intention but things work against me (probably because of previous bad karma but I keep accumulating so until I exhaust it, I'm doomed to not have good> evil in my account balance. Its gonna be a long trip for my soul.haha.)

WELL, its not so much the idea of karma itself because it is a pretty judicial system. You know, all you reap what you sow.. its the idea of "you're gonna get it, no matter what" or "whoo eee..payback time...WHAM!" that I don't relish.
See, unlike a jail term, I don't know when my ass is gonna get bitten or where or how. There is no in-between for the repayment of sins bit.( I don't think S/HE's ever in between jobs) So, for all I know, My A's have already pre ordained. So why am I even studying?

So, you start getting paranoid and superstitious..is the bus late cuz I told my mum i was studying when i was watching a movie? Did I sprain my ankle cuz I skipped PE the last time around?Does the crazy dog only choose me to bark at because well I was a thief in my previous birth? Does F Tong want to see me cuz I tucked out my uniform after he said don't for the nth time? ..Ok wait.. that isn't karma but you see what all the speculation can do.. make you paranoid. Before you know it, you don't know whether you're in the cockpit with the automatic pilot on or off. hmm.. And unlike the prehistoric conversation that meg and I had, I don't think karma meters are replacable any longer.

So, all we can do is pray for a lighter sentence so you get "whoo ee..payback time...thunk" instead of WHAM.

*wails* I want confession!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But then again, the bastards in Russia will have it coming like " whoo ee.. payback time.. WHACKSLAPDASHTHUNKABITCRASHBANGBAMSLAM"

and they deserve their bad karma.

To all the people I have hurt knowingly and unknowingly..


Walked around my good intentions
And found out there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
We hardly talked
Never thought I would forget this hate
And a phone call made me realize I'm wrong

And if I don't make it known
that I loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignored because
We're both dumb and jaded
And I hope to God

I figure out whats wrong
Walked around my room
not thinking Sinking in this box
Blame myself for being
too much like Somebody else
I never thought I would just bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong

Sometimes, when I walk pass the departure hall, I'm suddenly siezed by this intense longing to just leave. Hop on a plane and go away, somewhere else which is my home instead of here. I really want to leave. Away from all of this. Its the kind of longing that is accompanied by breathlessness that occurs until you have to conciously tell yourself to breathe and it all comes rushing out in a a big whoosh. The kind where it hurts to breathe because you know you can't leave.Wanderlust.Sighs. So many things to do and so many things to see but just not enough.

Studying at the airport definitely throws a few curveballs

Was at starbucks yesterday and my god, michelle and me were just laughing and laughing. and laughing and laughing. and laughing. It was like a switch or something and Hui Xun kept removing the "barrier" and we just kept giggling about the dumbest things. And yeah, I just couldn't stop. Needless to say, I didn't get much done but Laughter is good for the soul.

Life is good...for now :)

Stop it. STOP IT. I'm not the cause neither am I your one stop baggage unloading dock. Yes, I don't understand and I don't thinkI ever will. You are NOT the centre of the universe. I have apologised and if you don't think me worthy to deign me a reply to that then STOP communicating with me. Stop telling me what is screwing you over because you obviously don't think we have a relationship so why am I still listening to you? I don't know why I'm still indulging you and being hypocritical but all you do is cry all the time and I just don't have the energy to deal with you. I really don't. I'm sick of being misunderstood and feeling like a bitch.
I care but not enough to deal with you the way you are supposed to be dealt with. Please just leave me alone. Please.

Please.