What Famous Leader Are You?

haah. US be afraid, be very afraid :) Maybe that's why I want Kerry to win. Atleast, we can get free ketchup :)

What Classic Movie Are You?

Right..I'm dangerous. Maybe that's why mum put up the sign on my door that says "Beware! Animal Inside"haah.funny.if it wasn't me :P.

Seen the news lately. I swear, I really do detest the MOE. SATS are defunct now.SATs are not needed for admission. The quota now is A'Levels 95% and CCA 5% and where the hell is PW? hello?! PW! PROJECT STINKING WORK! Where we slaved our whole J1 doing it as guinea pigs where we frightened within inches of our lives if we did not do well. What the hell are you thinking please? As I quote " SATS can be used to "boost"your admission". Wtf. Please explain. Can you give back all the time we spent researching it, agonising over it and now it conveniently disappears from the stratification. The Problem with the eductaion system is not even the stress, its the sheer agony of now knowing what we are doin all this studying for. Not knowing when exactly what is going to be changed. That's the problem!

Sneakers- funny, laid-back, and goofy, you love to
make people laugh and have a good time. You
enjoy comfort and don't care to much about what
people think of you. You like to hang out with
your buddies and just have a good time. [please
vote! thank you! :)]


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Vas Philo 101 : God is Great
Tuning into : Twin Peaks theme song

I have truly realised how great god is. I mean, I do know that god IS great but it is something that is in by rote but yesterday it suddenly hit me that hey, god IS great! Well, it was like the time that Azzah and I were at Parkway having ice cream and we saw how the ice cream was made and Azzah was like It just hit me that ice cream is ICE cream, frozen cream. but that was how it was was, something niggling at the back of your head which you know is true but you never thought about it. Its funny, but I always God's power to be shown in some huge abject form but often it comes in the smallest ways. Like my SAT ticket. I mean it was a big deal to me but I'm sure in the big picture of events mine would have rated less than a nanometer.haah.

Its interesting but I always used to think that the universe was held in God's hand. It never occurred to me where God would be. I mean, he had to have some sort of space right? But, if you look at it logically, he doesn't need space or anything because he is GOD.duh.haah. Then I used to wonder how he was everywhere. Coordinating a famine in Ethiopia and being at the Presidential Elections while trying to help me with my economics at the same time sees a tad too impossible. But then it occurred to me, why was I trying to fit God into this little humanified box that I created. I mean he is beyond all of us. Why is God made into an entity? He is everywhere. He is Infinite.

After all, he's the only one who knows which came first - the chicken or the egg!

Well, the purpose of this discourse was to say that I don't actually have to nuke Korea physically anymore because God is Great and decided to divert attention off it ( I mean, with the US and NK tension..hmm..may it be later than sooner :P)
.haah.

I love having the last laugh with God :)

And the line that I wanted to say so much this year at debate and forgot
"Ducks lay eggs too"
(SRJC Invites; TJ vs CHS; THBT that the news media is irresponsible)

I realise that I cease to remain coherent and sane.

I'm sitting down, drinking flat root beer and doing history S, constantly yawning

Not exactly the high life is it?

oh well.haah. AM in lust.haah. As all you close people should know, I've been crowing about it for 2 days. I don't know your name but baby, you are HOT! (just in case, you know, he chances upon this) So hot, that if Burger King names a burger after you (my latest analogy), they'd call you Flaming HOT! haah. Happy :)

I have a coined a wonderful quote that will forever be remember by future generations of debaters
The most important word in debate is "SO?"
*smirks in a "I'm such a genius! way that it irritates the hell out of you*
Pretend it irritates you, that way, you have something to bitch abt tomorrow.haah. But, technically I don know how to smirk but since we're playing "Let's Pretend". Pretend!

Ugh. I had a dream yesterday and it was slightly freaky as I don't remember my dreams. I just imagined I was in ACJC and was part of the debate club.And I felt so marginalised and unrewarded. And I was/am glad I'm in TJ. Its given me opportunities that I wouldn't have got in other JCs. I know I'm not a great debater and probably in places like AC, I would have lost out to better speakers, definitely. Like my dad says, in one of his highly philosophical, I don't think you're Indian enough, you're culturally apathetic and spending far too much time in school spending far too much with the Chinese people (no offence) instead of knowing about your culture and you bloody well marry an Indian guy or I would never set my eyes on your face even if the sun rises in the west and I will digress to talk about God and how again even the ant outside is more pious then you and you only go pray if you need something from God and though God is ever plentiful he is not "Mr money bags" so why are you not giving thanks to him?, everything god does has a purpose.

So now I know my purpose in TJ :D

I hate flat root beer.

*Ramble. ramble*

I hate it when people always assume that I have to be linked with some sort of guy or the other. Especially in TJ. I'm sorry I do not like anyone in TJ. Really. Sorry to burst the bubble. And I do not want a relationship now. I have things like, hmm, I don't know,
*looks pensive*
my A'levels
to contend with. Besides, I don't really find anyone at all I can click with and be myself, guys that is. I expect instant chemistry and none of it is there with any guy I know. Besides, I think I'm too racially prejudiced to go out with anyone with isn't Indian. Not to be offensive, but I really cannot imagine going out with anyone outside my creed. So....

Hope that sunk in to some dunderheads

I swear, that one day when I get enough courage, I'm going nuke Korea off the Map. haah. Along with St Pat's school. ( No offence to the St Patz Guys)haah. And yes, I'm a sensitive bugger. sod off.haah.

Yesterday, I walked home from school and it took me 30 to 45 mins.. I dunno why I did it but it seemed like a pretty fun thing to do. Of course, Brenda being Brenda was like " SO? If you ran it, then I'd be impressed but you walked!" And they wonder why so many teens commit suicide. Its because of their friends. haah

Hmm, today we had Marcus Tan for GP and it was quite fun and the most amount of work we have done for a GP
discussion. Haah. Jolyn ran in and tried to remain inconspicuous. Haah. I was shooting my mouth off as usual. haah. And the whole class wanted to sabotage me because I asked Qi Ying one question. sheesh. Well. he also complimented my class saying that he was feeling refreshed with our class and was glad we knew what the words meant and actually responded. Of course, Mrs Lau probably loved 06 due to the high number of male species and many of them good looking by TJ standards.haah.She made them do introductions and Yz said it was real fun. Oh well, GP was a nice change :)

Well, the point is, I have never felt so proud of my class like this, before. I really love 3203! I really do. You guys rock :D
ALOT! Well, despite the few aberrations in the class, I still love them :)

US have concluded that a certain member of our class is a symbolic representation of the chickens that are going to be culled. Haah. People actually believed that he came down with avain flu. Right.

People are so gullible.

Oh well, enough musing. Here's the word of the day.haah. :D
Courtesy of Dictionary.com
mordant \MORD-uhnt\, adjective:
biting; caustic; sarcastic; keen; severe
"He was endowed with a peculiarly mordant wit."

"On a bright, hot, sunny day, with NATO's planes no longer popping the sound barrier over Belgrade, it is easy to imagine Mrs. Bogic indulging in Slavic pessimism, the other side of the mordant humor and endurance that ordinary Serbs have displayed in this bizarre and unequal war." --"City Starts to Rebuild as Despair and Pessimism Linger," New York Times, June 6, 1999

4 times. I fucking better find something to do. sighs.

Sadly, I can feel the blogger inferiority creeping up on me.

*stares at a spot on the wall, looking intellectual and rubbing chin*
*stops rubbing and just frowns thoughtfully*
*stops, looks around fervently*
*grins*
*evilly*


*and screams*

I'M AN EXHIBITIONIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


bet you didn't see that coming. haah.

I swear, what is with girls , guys and relationships.

I bet AI is there for a reason. SO we can box up people the way we want to. clinical but easier. Sometimes, just cannot help but agree with Brenda. And that is indeed a sucky day.haah.

Sighs.

Dido - Life for Rent

I haven't ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

Asian Dub Foundation feat. Assata Shakur - Commited To Life

I'll be honest with you:
I hate war in all it's forms-
Physical, Psychological, Spiritual... Emotional... Environmental
I hate war...
And I hate having to struggle - I honestly do
because I wish I had been into a world where it was
unnecessary.
This context of struggle and being a warrior and being a
struggler
has been forced on me by oppression.
Otherwise I would be a sculptor, or a gardener,
carpenter - you know, I would be free to be so much more...

I guess part of me or a part of who I am, a part of what I do
is being a warrior - a reluctant warrior, a reluctant struggler
But... I do it because I'm committed to life
We can't avoid it, we can't run away from it
Because to do that is to be... cowardice-
to do that is to be subservient... to devils, subservient to
evil and so that the only way to live on this planet
With any human dignity at the moment is to struggle.

The paradox of our time in history is that we
have taller buildings, but shorter tempers;
Wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints;
We spend more, but have less;
We buy more, but enjoy it less;
We have bigger houses, but smaller families;
More conveniences, but less time;
We have more degrees, but less common sense;
More knowledge, but more judgement;
More experts, but more problems;
More medicine, but less wellness.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced
our values;
We talked too much, love too little, and hate too
often.
We have learned how to make a living, but not a
life.
We have added years to life, but not life to
years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but
have trouble crossing the road to meet our new
neighbour.
We've cleaned up the air but polluted our soul.
We have split the atom, but not our prejudice.
We have higher incomes, but lower morals.
We have become high on quantity, but short on
quality.
These are the times of tall men and short
characters;
Steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the times of world peace, but domestic
warfare.
More leisure, but less fun;
More kinds of food, but less nutritions;
These are the days of two incomes, but more
divorces;
Of fancier houses, but broken homes;
It is a time when there is much in the show
window and nothing in the stockroom.
A time when technology can bring this message to
u and a time when u can choose either to make a
difference or just ignore it.

btw, forget the friendship thing i typed yesterday because

I OFFCIALLY DISOWN MY FRIENDS

that is, for today ( and i'm nice :P) and let me tell you one good reason why you SHOULD never ever judge a book by its cover.Because, the sweetest, most "angelic" ones are the most devious ones =glares=. And i will repeat this mantra
until someone repents their VERY EVIL ACTION (which is also amsuing at my expense) or something worse happens.

Which brings us to the question on why the more amusing something is, the more liable it is to go on for a long time. Actually that was not a question but a statement. Oh well, I'm glad I bring joy and extreme amusement to my disowned friends :D. What can I say?

Which then brings us to the question of Why the Hell am I doing this when I have pressing, over due work to do?

Answer : Beacuse I'm Vasudha

heh.

Post Friendship Week

I have realised that none of my close friends actually follow me up.
Let's look at the facts.
In Primary 6, Sherene, my best friend went to Cedar and I went to TKGS.
In sec 1 and 2, Kat and Nuha were my good friends respectively went away to different classes. Nuha to 4/9, Kat and the H4 to 4/7 and I, the lonely soul went to 4/4 alone with no other 2/7-er to accompany me.
In Sec 3 and 4, my close friends were Gau, Fatma and to a certain extent Shaan.
Gau went to VJ, then flew the coop to go to Oz. Fatma went to VJ and though Shaan went to T, she went to an entirely different class and now we are not As close or maybe closer as we were, I don't know.

Funny, it was actually Cheryl Lee who followed me up. From TA6 to TK to TJ. Sadly, don't talk to her anymore even though, her, Ruo Ya, Hwee Ying and Me used to make alot of noise in Pri 6. Weird. And haha, I remember we had to write a group composition on some sort of journal and she chose the date 23rd or 26th October and we all protested. But she insisted that it was the best date because, as I later guessed, it was her birthday. And we used to gush so much about her sister Amanda, whom, I swear was one of the cutest little kids I ever saw. Well Cheryl, if you ever read this, I'm glad o know You :) And it IS peculiar because I see her every morning because she is in 31.

And actually, what is Friendship? Is it just some bond you form that lets you use the person for a while, emotionally or physically and once that use has dried up and the years go by, you don't know what to do with that redundant bond. It just sounds so cynical but is it true? What defines friendship any better? Because you can tell each other things, so you can release your emotions, so you have someone to laugh with? I don't know. But definitely, for whatever reason, It is not easy to maintain a friendship. So many complications can occur. Friend A may hate the guts of Friend B. Friend C may be laughing at you while smiling with you. Friend D may be a great person but not someone you actually want to be friends with. Haah. Its so cynical but weird. I don't know. I just hope that I never lose my JC friendships because I really feel as though A lot has happened with them ( ALOT HAS!) but at the same time, I hope I'll never stop being friends with Gau and Fatma and Nuha and Kat.

>> Random Memory : Haah. There was once in sec 4 when Nuha and I met up after a while and we wanted to go Suntec but we got off one stop earlier and decided to walk through via the concourse but ended up somewhere en way to Espalnade and all we could do was sing Sweetness by Jimmy Eat World. Haah. We were nuts. Really. I had the oddest friendship with her. It feels weird to say Alawiyah now.haaah~<<

And now I'm good friends with Azzah. Weird~ I mean I knew her via Nuha but yeah, It is just weird :].
Well, I don't se many of my friends as often as I like as I guess I'm too busy wrapped up with this bunch so to all of you pple, we were good friends once and I do treasure that and it will definitely be special to me and there will be days when I'll just sit there and laugh about it as i hash through the memories.
To
Nuha: you will always be my best friend to some part of me ( please don't cry as I know you will).
Kat: haha, we had some good times together. Lab Rats forever. Pls do not get into teng yippy situations. Gau: Your'e in Australia so go away.
Fatma : Chocolate is sinful but so is sex on the kitchen table. Hope you get your sleek kitchen.
Shaan : I know you'll find the ang moh Indian for you ;)
Sherene : woah! we were kids and though we hardly talk, I only wish you the very best :)
Haniza : I will miss everything about you. Your kooky sense of Humour and your Berets.
Diane: Only 3 mths and woah, I miss you!
Jana: Your'e pretty faar away and the chances of you reading this is one to a million, but hey glad to have known you :) You're still the only one i know who appreciates kid rock. Will never forget wasshisname in sec 2..JEROME!haah
us : You know who you are :) and i'm glad all of you are part of my life :) >>hugz<<
Dunman / Condemned Gang : I used to wish you all dead but I guess I matured. Now I wish you'd all just commit suicide ;) Atleast, you all tend to understand that Vasudha is my name more than Busty <:P
3203: we rock.'nuff said
Megz: haah. floozie. >>grinz<<

Well, to the rest, I guess you're pivotal in my life in some way so HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY anyway.
And to anyone else i missed, er, I guess you ain't that Important.haah. kidding. sheesh.


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ok.
I hate Sundays. I really do. I don't know why. I just do. It is so irritating. Maybe because it marks the slow demise of time and shortens the time period towards the A's and thus it looms closer. Maybe, because I have school on Monday. Or maybe because I have the most time for introspection. Whatever it is, it sucks.

I have also realised that despite my so called simple atiitude towards life, I'm a highly complex individual who is paradoxical who loves to complicate things so much that I creep myself out. And I am wary of relationships and the closer a person gets, the further away i try to put myself away from it. But, yeah, there are exceptions or maybe its only with guys. Who knows? I am weird. Perhaps, deep down, I am an undiscovered lesbian who has yet to realise it because of the confines of society and has not actually had her sexual awakening. How romantic. Perhaps, that would also explain, that my longest crush to date on a not so bad member of the opposite sex has been 2.5 weeks.ha.

However, we cannot discount the facts on Valmiki. Analyse that.

I also find it vastly irritating that people always assume I am intellectual. I am not. Just because I am debate president, know a few bombastic words, does not mean I am intellectual. I read trashy novels, used to watch barney, would switch channels from discovery to mtv if there is something more interesting. I always go for entertainment value. Just beacuse I wear specs and do not sound that cheena ( for obvious reasons, I'm indian). My staple vocabulary is made up of words like "cool", "eeww", "damnnit", "crap", "stuff" and beat this "thingamajig". I can't spell. The fact I did moderately well on an American test (SAT) just shows how attuned I am to their culture.

However, i find perverse pleasure in shooting down people who believe I'm a bimbo because I read trashy novels. I'm definitely a floozie to a large extent. However, the intellectual evil side comes out once in a while. Also, I do eschew Geroge Bush which explains alot about my intellectual level. I cannot stand ungrammatical people, things like, eg. "stuffs" get on my nerves alot. I only have one nerve so please do not get on it and Brenda attempted to show this to me by presenting me a scenario as follows - One day, my future husband (who is everything I want) comes up to me and says " Honey, I is very cold". Needless to say, I shuddered violently. I'm also suffciently intellectual enough to realise that the paragraph below is actually nonsense and actually fear for the sanity of my juniors.

The cold war is so named as it began in the Arctic. The Eskimos wanted to take over Greenland but they had insufficient forces. Hence they engaged the Russians as partners in war. As they encroached on the sovereignty of Greenland and the irredentist claim of the Eskimos proved invalid, the Americans, in their quest for justice decided to wage war upon the errant Russians and Eskimos. Slowly, they Eskimos left the scene as the Russians took on greater responsibilities in the war. As such, the international history section that we are now studying deals with the later part of the Cold War. from Megz (haah!) journal

However, the verdict is i'm a floozie. So quit judging me and go live your cold, dark and icy life by substiantiating it with War and Peace, and living knowing that Knowledge is Power. Sadly, I have a feeling I'll end up with you some time.

I also don't know whether to strangle the bra or to just plot her revenge now or just laugh helplessly as I would if it happened to someone else. Sighs. My friends are really the bane of my life. Maybe this explains my wary attitude. Its an instinctive self protection blanket that I use to insulate me from embarrassment and riducle. +sniffles+ The world is a cold hard and cruel place and the icy wind blows and bites me as I feel the laughter around and I stand alone as a lone tear wells up in my eye.haah. It also sucks when members of staff give approval and knowing glances. One day, i'm going to save God the trouble and commit suicide and kill my friends too.haah.

Did I mention I LOATHE, HATE, DESPISE, ABHOR, ABOMINATE and am ALLERGIC to the word cute. Its such a limp description of people. Its like the word nice. Often used to cover up the fact that you have nothing to say-"she's erm, nice". Its so blah. I'm not a cute person. I'm a GIRL WITH A DYNAMIC ATTITUDE AND MY OWN PERSONALITY. I'm not CUTE!Ironically, I use that word often to describe people too. But hey, I believe my rules don't apply to me.too bad.

Interestingly, here's the word history of the word cute (taken from dictionary.com)

Word History: Cute is a good example of how a shortened form of a word can take on a life of its own, developing a sense that dissociates it from the longer word from which it was derived. Cute was originally a shortened form of acute in the sense “keenly perceptive or discerning, shrewd.” In this sense cute is first recorded in a dictionary published in 1731. Probably cute came to be used as a term of approbation for things demonstrating acuteness, and so it went on to develop its own sense of “pretty, fetching,” first recorded with reference to “gals” in 1838.

Did I mention I hate Sundays?

Deleted the debate blog beacuse it is wasting valuable internet megabytes by just sitting there. will be creating one again this time where there is complete access and everyone can edit it. It comes with its own username and password.Customised version!

Craig Davids - Spanish

My SATS were weird.. i got 710 for my maths and 660 verbal and i'm surprised. Guess i should reevaluate my decison on dropping maths (even though its kind of late). But yet, I find I think its a horrible score. Really. I wanted atleast a 1450. and i have to work somemore.

I hate working.ha.

got back the big 5 test and I think its pretty inaccurate of a person I am. I mean, just because, I answer a couple of questions, You think I can be all classified nicely into your little box right?

Wrong.

Hey, it may be right to a ceratin extent but any two bit fool who remotely knew me would definitely know that research is not my forte. Yes. so there..ha! but it also happens to tell me i'm a very flexible person AKA slacker.. ( a title i'm proud to hold! :D)and some pretty accurate things about how i'm wary about pple getting too close to me and yeah things like that. Things that I already knew before you charged me $40 to tell me what i knew. Hats off to you! You are a true blue entrepreneur because you make money by telling me what i know ehithout telling me that before. Sorry but you cant't take over the world yet.

Have also decided to write in good english without the short forms in place. kind of hard but getting used to it. ANything to sound less cheena. thanks you gau for lowering my self esteem and telling me that i shoudl have gone to VJ.

And on a last note, Haniza. TAKE CARE!! what the hell are you doing?!!! are you ok?! If i can come down to lib@ orchard tomoro. i will msg you ok!!! CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS (even though i know you hate people writing like that.ha.) i know an avant garde writer. this is my ticket to the literate world. Away trashy novels. ha.

Humour 101 is on your right.

P/s: me and Jo came up with this list on how to save Tj. Due to its highly contreverisial nature, i am unable to publish it publicly but trust me, its hilarious. 32 rocks.ha.