I got the law interview letter

[!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

I was being such a "kanchiong" loser [quote Jo]and waiting near the post box today. hahahahha.

Well, I haven't done that since I was a kid. I used to wait in anticipation for the postman to drop in the letters into the letterbox. Sometimes, a realy nice postman would give me the letters straight in my hand and I'd refuse and make him drop into the box just so I could open it and take out the letters.

Digression over
I got the law interview letter!!!!!!

Ok Flurry of thoughts..coherency not guaranteed.

I was reading Time's latest issue about the 100 icons of Time and it just struck me, during history lessons, how I used to marvel that I was there when the Berlin wall fell. Ok, this is hard to phrase. I was chronoloigically and physically there but I was completely unaware of the events that were happening. I fear that I probably forced my dad to switch channels to watch Seaseme Street. I know, it is probably because I was 5, and considering my intelligence level NOW, I can safely tell you that it probabaly wasn't alot then. But yet, right now, when I'm old enough to appreciate the gravity of the world situation, its still feels like I am chronologically and physically here, but I'm still floating elsewhere.

Why don't I feel like I'm in the midst of history, when I'm right in it?

I don't know how the rest feel about this, but the fact remains is that we lived - living through the Orange Revolution, to see a Gulf War TWO, to see America living out the aftereffects of the Cold War, to see Asia rise as a new empire, to see a world disaster manifest itself and YET, unable to feel the true consequence of it, unable to feel that we are in the making of history, unable to grapple that 20 years from today, kids will be asking us how was it to live in such a climate and perhaps, I may just have to tell then what my dad told me about the CMC - "It was not that dramatic, lestways not the way it was in your notes, perhaps because India was non aligned then, but I honestly don't remember it all that much".

I refuse to believe, that during the Cuban Missile Crisis, it was like that!

Is this complacency?
I don't know! I, the romantic, just feel a bit disappointed and yes, sad, that perhaps, history is not for the common man after all. It is not for us to feel for the events but to just be silent witmesses and accept that unless something affected us DIRECTLY, it is but another event in another part of the world which will soon blow over. someday.

History is perhaps, just meant to be romanticised and hence, indeed, just meant to be read and not lived.