Unleash the hidden whore!

As slutty as this sounds, I'm going to come clean.

Looking at cute guys gives me an adrenaline rush. I mean, not orgasmic but I guess pretty close ;)
This "revelation" was of course, prompted by Cleo's top50 bachelors and it being populated by guys who are some way Indian.
Damnnit they are hot! (One of them happens to be distantly related, my brother's friend's brother, the same guy also being my dad's friends's son)

But it feels good, to treat them as objects. I mean, its not feminist ( or anti-fem when you continue reading on) but I can completely undertsand why men like Playboy. Of course, girly mags cloak this sluttiness and healthy display of hormones, in nice little pageants like these whereas macho mags(purely stereoptypical) probabaly just say "heck! strip!"

*disclaimer : I am a slut. Not much of a disclaimer, but one nevertheless

I mean, looking at a goo d looking guy and feeling that rush, as shallow as it may be, is very nice. It IS very nice to discuss hot bodies and think about guys in a sexual way. It actually is fairly libearating as it does not imply any commitment as when you bring in the emtional drivel. It is the same rush, you get looking at Brad Pitt. Same illogical reason why we feel happy when his marraige fell apart. ( mean, he IS single but hello? what makes you think thas has ANY bearing on your life.) It is very nice to fantasise about hot guys.

I,of course, have no idea, if this has been prompted but the enlightening fact that I probabaly will never get attached as long as i'm this country. SO might as well enjoy it while it lasts. Or perhaps, because of my slighlty unusal take on love and/or my marraige , I have always had this perspective but never the courage to manifest it.

( and to anyone else who keeps asking [why?!] I did not secretly get a boyfriend in these past 5 mths. STOP ASKING ME THAT!)

In a way, it appeals to the voyuer in us. a slutty voyeur.
Perhaps, I just need a healthy dose of you-noe-what. (what are YOU thinkng?)

I revel in the fact that I'm a shallow slut!
:)